During our Activity time. Josh with his haggard mummy!
There was this documentary wherein a Pastor had a dream: He was in a Church where everything was chaotic. There were people getting drunk, people having sex on the pews, people that were doing a lot of things which dishonored the Lord. The pastor was so filled with anger that he wanted to scream, “Get out!!” Then God’s voice came vividly to him saying, “you asked for the lost, here they are. just Love them and I’ll change them.” Like this pastor i also used to think that Christianity was all about following principles, do this and do that, it’s either you’re in or you’re out. But it’s more than that, it’s an ongoing relationship. Love Christ then loving others will naturally follow. It really has nothing to do with us, but everything to do with Christ. I have a long way to go in terms of being Christ-like, but God has been faithful and is continuing to help me see areas of my life where i am suffering from pride. Thanks for letting me borrow this book! @annelorraineuy :) #goodreads
This journey was the hardest struggle I have ever been on in my life, but God has always been good. He still is. When I was convicted of my sin and shame, it led me to repentance and into a love relationship with Jesus that I never had before. It was during my darkest times wherein I experienced Christ’s love abounding more than ever. “Jesus is all there is when there is nothing left.” I didn’t even know I was with child. When I found out, I felt fear. “My reputation as a good Christian girl is going to be tainted”. “I have brought shame to my family.” I even struggled with the temptation of getting rid of the child or myself. I am weak, I am sinful. But in my weakness, Christ is made stronger. I even asked God, “I know You forgave me and I felt Your presence so strongly and You have spoken to me through Your words and through events that are unexplainable by human logic, so why this? I thought you gave me a clean slate? How can I glorify you in this way?” And during my devotions it is written by Charles Stanley that ‘Grace does not cancel sin’s consequences. God will forgive us when we sin. He will still love us and use us, but the damage will not always be erased.. turn to God with a repentant heart. He will restore you.” So me and my household decided to lift it all unto the Lord and to trust Him. Throughout my pregnancy I could see that He has been with me always. When we seek Him, He will be there! I have seen Him working through the help of other believers. I have been given good advice, “we have a tendency to be defensive and to stand up for ourselves, but always strive to live in humility.” And that “you need not be ashamed, it is okay to rejoice with the life inside of you which He has given you.” The joy of the Lord has really been my strength. A lot of His promises in the Bible are being fulfilled in my life. He wants to restore our joy. Don’t be fooled into thinking that you should live with your sin and shame all the days of your life because you deserve it. I had that mentality and it eats you up inside. Nobody deserves that. Jesus loves you. (Joshua 1:9, 1John4:18)